The Scene: Medical office. Doctor is sitting somberly behind his desk, shaking his head sadly as he reviews my test results. I am perched on the very edge of a chair in front of his desk, sweating profusely and about to either faint, vomit, or both.
Sad Doctor: "Ms. CrankyPants, Ms. CrankyPants, Ms. CrankyPants...why, oh WHY didn't you get this looked at 6 months ago? We could have saved you! Now...it's far too late." [more sorrowful head shaking]
Panicky Ms. C-P: "Blkhjkdbgysnph!" [inarticulate mumbling, vomiting, or both]
Now-Annoyed Doctor: "Assistant! Remove Ms. CrankyPants from my office at once! See to it she doesn't soil the carpet. And be sure to get her co-payment!"
If I don't do something to stop it (like watch a trashy TV show or read gossip sites online), my terrifying little fantasy gets a lot more involved, but I don't want to totally depress you. So I'll switch to something cheerier:
I'm going bald! Yes, folks, there is an alarming patch of thinning hair that I'm seeing the dermatologist about next week. (Clearly, vanity propels me to the doctor a lot faster than a possibly life-threatening Suspicious Swelling.) Hopefully, the hair loss is caused by something delightful like a fungus that can be cleared up with a smelly and scalp-stinging shampoo, but I'm certainly open to other, deadlier, reasons for this latest addition to Things Wrong with Ms. CrankyPants. Even Capt. Nap is
"I can't look at your fungus-covered scalp! It's hideous!" |
I did not know about the neck swelling. I am the total opposite. When I detect a problem, I want it gone as in yesterday! I am wondering if the hair loss could be related to the new diet. Have you googled that? Good luck! MK
ReplyDeleteMK, I've avoided talking about it. Part of my awesome bury-head-in-sand approach. Your approach is far more sensible, for sure.
DeleteRe: the diet, I'll google that; I suspect it's meds, but it wouldn't hurt to check that too. Maybe it's a perfect storm of meds, diet, and stress!
Did you know that alopecia (hair loss), can be a side effect of Copaxone. Don't forget to tell the dermatologist ALL of the meds you are on.
ReplyDeleteI did *not* know that, Karen. Gah! If that is the cause, I wonder if they'll switch me to a different DMD? Hopefully there's a remedy that doesn't involve going off Copaxone.
DeleteThanks for reminding me about mentioning the meds. I actually carry around a list of all of them, which is usually pretty embarrassing to pull out as it's so long. Incidentally, don't you love those forms you fill out on your first visit to a doctor where they ask you, "What medications are you on?" and then have a line like this: _______________________ I've had to write on the back of many a form!
I only take 2 drugs daily, one for GERD and one to help me sleep. On occasion I take an anti spasm/convulsant/anxiety pill, and that's it. My list of allergies to meds is way longer...about 25 drugs on that list.
DeleteAaaargh. Though, I have found that my imagination has created realities far scarier than the one I am really living in. I hope yours is too. And Karen is right, not only can medication cause hair loss, but so can stress. And you have surely had a teensy, weensy amount of that.
ReplyDeleteGood luck. Please keep us up to date.
Aren't imaginations fabulous, EC? At least, when concocting scary things (and you're not Stephen King and getting paid to imagine scary things!).
DeleteThanks for the positive thoughts. Good to keep a few of those in mind; stress isn't good for anyone, much less people with MS who are losing their hair.
I'd say it's perfectly normal to be s**t scared. I'm sure everything will be ok though. Like the previous comment said, the hair loss could be caused by stress. Ironic really, seen as the stress is probably much worse because of the hair-loss. You just can't win! ;) Haven't heard of the diet having anything but a good effect on things, after all it's just a healthy eating diet really, but you never know. Keep us posted and good luck with everything. Deep breaths and try and relax. xx
ReplyDeleteThanks, Chloe, and nice to hear from you! Working hard to distract myself (probably shouldn't have looked at the doctor's ultrasound order just now, which has mysterious items checked off in the "lymph nodes" section). Oh, dear, I think a clump of hair just fell out!
DeleteDeep breathing to commence at once...
You have a funny doctor scene here...I was losing hair also, but it stopped...It was scary but I do not know what caused it. I thought it was my age? but I was on Copaxone also at about that time?? I dont remember but I know many meds cause hair loss
ReplyDeleteKim, how interesting...the Copaxone seems a likely culprit! Not sure what the solution will be (if that's it), but I'll definitely post about it.
DeleteThanks re: the doctor scene. Sometimes I have to laugh at my ridiculous way of looking at health matters, or else I'd go completely crazy.
what is copaxone for? re: vanity & getting to dr quickly vs not...when I had the "goiter" on MY thyroid my vanity was quite affected! I was HORRIFIED. Every time I looked in the mirror & swallowed a few times "just to check it out" it look every bit as bad as it had the last 10,000x I'd checked it. I wanted that sucker GONE GONE GONE, stat, and partly due to vanity! So...maybe your swelling it much smaller!?MK
ReplyDeleteMK, the Copaxone is the drug I take for MS.
DeleteI can't so much SEE it as FEEL it. At certain neck angles, e.g., when I swallow I can feel the thing bobble around. Gross.
I'm hoping the best for you. It is maddening, I'm sure.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's just a bite of sandwich that is stuck in there.
Thanks, Sock. It's maddening and scary. I do hope it's a sandwich, even though that would be revolting beyond words.
DeleteHello!
ReplyDeleteI really sympathise with you, you poor thing. My hair is falling out at an alarming rate, but I blame the Teenager, meh. I was eyeing up some rather lovely wigs in town yesterday....
Let us know how it goes?
Can't you just do the Swank diet 6 days a week and indulge on 1 day? That would work for me! I'm off for a Chinese tonight...
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Hi, SIF!
DeleteIf I recall my behavior as a teenager accurately (and I think I do), then it could certainly cause a parent to lose hair. I will indeed let you know how it goes. And please stand by: I may need your advice on wigs.
Dr. Swank says NO CHEATING! At least, if you want those fantabulous results, you are supposed to be mighty strict. I've tried *really* hard to be good and have mostly succeeded.
Jealous of your Chinese...I just stopped at store to stock up on Tofurkey. Meh.
Hello,
ReplyDeleteNo cheating? That's just mean. I fancy the 5:2 diet where you only have 500 calories two days a week and eat normally the rest of the time. Suits my inner laziness, lol.
Must really find some time to read what you sent me about the Swank. Am too scared. The Chinese was lovely - I could barely lever myself into the car afterwards and the teenager was bloated, bless him. Was funny though.
I also figure that if I'm going to have yet another course of steroids in July, I might as well give up. I have put on so much weight with them!
As they say, inside every large woman is a thin lady screaming to get out (cause I've just eaten her)...
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